Dear Me:

Dear Me:

First of all, younger me, I'd like to commend you on your frame of mind when it comes to your bullies. You have every right to feel that you're better than them because if I'm being honest, you are, and you still will be all these years later. It's incredible that you don't let them get to you even though you now have a small fingerprint of a scar on your hand (even though you can only see it when it's pointed out) and after all the atrocious things that we're said. You will be left with sometimes crippling anxiety because of it (and some other things) but don't worry, that will pass for the most part and you'll be able to live a relatively normal life. 

He's making a fool of you, and this is only the beginning. You deserve way better and there is going to be someone else who will love you. In a way what will happen will be the worst time of your entire life but your life will be shaped for the better because of it. You won't see how it can get any way better but oh my are you in for the surprise of your life. You will finally find who you are, you will still make mistakes though let me add, but it's all a process and you wont even believe how happy you can be! I can't even begin to explain it. The heaviness in your chest will leave, and come back again but don't get disheartened because you'll get a hold of it eventually. 

You will laugh more in the two years following your darkest time and you will meet so many new friends who are great people, and keep three of the current ones you have because they are the most amazing three girls ever (I mean realistically who keeps in touch with all of the "best friends" they had? Don't worry, it's for the best) and you will do more than you ever even imagined. Your life will finally be exactly what you always dreamed it would.

Stop thinking you're fat, you're not even close trust me on this one you're not. You're going to look back at those pictures of you when you were a little stick figure and wish you had just copped on and kept that figure. It's going to be quite a struggle from here on out so please learn your discipline now! 

Also stop just putting tan on your legs...honestly you look dumb. Thank God you don't go out often.

Get more photos with people, not those stupid posey duck face ones with your friends, get nice ones with them but get nice photos with your family too, stop trying to hide yourself it looks worse than you think you will if you just smile. You're really going to regret this one. And stop putting them all in black and white, I mean you can but save the originals too you'll want them later.

With love, 
Older You.




 XO