A little hiatus (again)

This is a little post just to announce (this sounds very pretentious and I'm very sorry) a hiatus that I feel I need to take from this blog. It's not that I don't have an interest in this anymore, because I do. I just feel like I'm not in a right place mentally right now to write in any kind of cohesive way, I feel like a lot of my recent posts are just not up to scratch and I'm not pleased. I have a few personal issues I need to work out before I come back to putting words together in a sentence that makes any kind of sense (did that even make sense?). This is a new kind of mental issue that I've kind of considered in the past but thought "Nah, I can't be" but lately it's been getting worse and worse. It seems to be a vicious circle as i feel like it's directly caused my weight gain and in turn I'm stressed, and when I'm stressed my body holds on to extra weight, and then I'm getting stressed about the fact I'm stressed and knowing that it's holding weight in my body! It's one of those things that looking in on from the outside it's very easy to see if I just stopped stressing it could be ok, but from an inside perspective it's really not that easy at all, and then if you consider all the other factors then we're really in deep! But that's for another day...maybe! So for now I'll take a little break (because I've never done that a million times before), maybe I'll post every now and then but perhaps not. We'll see! 

XO

It's Been Hard Work

I have found it so difficult to get back into anything at all lately, since we've been back from Portugal I've found it very hard to have the motivation to go to the gym or to write posts. I've been back three weeks and have only managed to go to the gym a handful of times and of course work also plays into that as sometimes I don't have the time to go, and I'm too tired to even think of writing. I'll post a few photos of my time in Portugal on a different post maybe...if I can get back into sitting down and blogging.

I have to retrain my brain into a lot of things to be honest, blogging, healthy eating, positive thinking. I forgot how hard it is to try and get into the swing of things, it's been very hard to not compare myself to others and it's very hard to keep positive bout my weight loss when I've kind of fluctuated between 3 or so lbs for the past two weeks (I.e, I'm very behind on where I'd like to be). Ever since I've come home from Portugal all I've craved is take aways and Macdonalds and coke (I've never ever craved coke so this is worrying for me as I can feel myself being more tired than usual and I'm putting that down to the high sugar drinks). Coming up to my holiday I was entering my exercise and food on myfitnesspal every single day and I have not put one entry in in the past month! 

Hopefully this is the start to getting myself back into things! I'm sorry this probably hasn't been a very interesting post, I hope by the end of this weekend I'll have a few more things written up!


XO